Dismal in Covington

I'll be honest. Today was a generally crappy day. Nope, I'm not gonna sugar coat it, I'm telling you like it is. The job I hoped to get went to someone else. Actually, it's not the job I wanted but it had the location and was with a company that I have been interested in working with for a few years. That certainly took the wind out of my sails. I did have a FaceTime interview today but was called an hour early. As a result, I had to be confident in my pjs. It's a good thing that I wear boring pajamas.

I've seen the numerous applications I've submit all yield the "we regret to inform you" email returned. This is such a bummer. On the one hand I am glad that I have time to settle in here in our new home. On the other hand, I've been so depressed that most days I simply step pass the various piles and boxes that surround us in our suite (my hubby and I now live in my brother's very spacious two-room three-closet bonus room which I love). Today I'd hoped that I would get more unpacking done. We have a lot of things to document and donate to charity. Instead, I spent the day in front of the computer applying to jobs and wanting to write and read and to just feel like I was being productive. It was just one of those days where I just struggled. I'm still appreciative of my life and feel incredibly blessed but at this moment I feel disappointed in myself.

Job hunting is truly like having a job. You sit in front of the computer for hours but unlike actually having a job, at the end of the day you haven't earned any money. Ideally I'd love to do a job that I could do from home. I have a fully functioning home office with everything needed to do so. However, I am not really interested in making my business, Davidson Administrative Services, a full-time commitment just yet. Eh, I'm just in a bit of a funk at the moment and I know that it's temporary so I wouldn't say that I'm in the danger zone or anything. I'm confident in myself and my abilities and know that when the time is right, it'll happen for me.

On the plus side my hubby starts a job on Monday. I am so incredibly happy for him. He is always in such good spirits and is my rock even when I know that he's been really disappointed in not having worked since November. I realize that the ebb and flow life can be exhausting, I just hope that good news is just around the corner!

Enjoy today's poem, My Immortal. It's about my wonderful hubby...who doesn't read my blog and says it's because he lives with me and doesn't need to. I can't help it, I do love him and I know he loves me too.